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[Thu 11 Jun @ 3:48pm] |
[Hexed Private to Hermione]
We should talk.
[/Hex to Hermione]
[Hexed Private to the DA]
For those of you who are working with the Order as well, keep in mind that I haven't exactly told any of the others who weren't at the DA meeting about what we're doing. I'm letting them know what we're doing tonight, just keep from telling any of them about it until I give you the okay. It shouldn't be a big deal, considering we aren't doing anything wrong, but I'm not sure if they'll think that we have a problem with the Order or not. I'll get back to you all.
And remember that our next meeting - where we'll actually get a few hours of training in - will be this Sunday that's coming up at the same time and place.
[Hex to the DA]
My head is still buzzing from yesterday and Monday's Occlumency lessons I've recently discovered that eating sunflower seeds is the best way to keep from chewing all of your fingernails off. We'll see how long I can keep this up. Helps distract me, that's for sure
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| 30 |
[Fri 24 Apr @ 12:48am] |
[HEXED PRIVATE TO DUMBLEDORE'S ARMY]
Remember that the first meeting is this afternoon at four, and we've got a meeting place now. Viktor has been nice enough to let us use his er, soon-to-be old flat which has more space than any other place we could use on such short notice. [Address here]
Also a reminder that anyone you know and trust who'd be interested in training is welcome to come and see if it's something they want to do.
The faster you all get there the sooner we can start.
[/PRIVATE TO THE DA]
[PRIVATE TO SELF]
Here we go... Hopefully we can pull this off. I should feel more confident than I am that I can teach th
Here we go.
[/PRIVATE TO SELF]
[PRIVATE TO GINNY]
You really were kidding about the peach thing, right? And the thirteen thin
[/PRIVATE TO GINNY]
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[Sun 22 Mar @ 8:02pm] |
[Private to Neville]
Remind me every once in awhile not to hesitate. And thank you.
[/Private to Neville]
[Private to Viktor]
I wondered if you'd be willing to help me with something.
[/Private to Viktor]
[PRIVATE; DUMBLEDORE'S ARMY]
I know it's been a long time, guys, but I'm hoping some of you are interested in an idea Neville and I put together. Not all of you, but a good amount, are involved in The Order of The Phoenix, and so for some this will be easier to visualize than others.
We're all aware that everyone is busy with work and their social lives, but it hasn't changed much from school. We had classes then, and clubs, and Quidditch, and all of that, but we still did the DA because it was what we knew was right. We did it because we wanted to be prepared for what was to come, and for awhile it united us as a force to be reckoned with.
The idea is that we reform, this time continuing to focus on learning but also on actually going out there and doing something about what's going on. Our careers span all over Britain, and if we listen carefully and pay attention to what's going on around us, Neville and I believe that we can work together to find our own sources of information just like the Death Eaters are. There just aren't enough of them that are free to roam; the have to have outside help and we can find it... we just have to work together and keep an eye out for any signs of involvement. They obviously had influences inside of the Ministry as well as St. Mungo's otherwise they would have never have been able to get in.
A good friend once described Voldemort to me as prideful, and having belief in his own superiority - determined to carve for himself a startling place in magical history. He's strong; hell yes he's strong, but pride is one of his greatest weaknesses, and we can use it against him.
We'd have meetings a few times a week; training and reporting anything that we've heard or seen. Gathering all of the questions and concerns that any of us have, and working alongside the Order, we'll combine what we learn and use it against our enemy. Anyone you know, anyone that you can trust, that would be interested in this, in something extra... they're welcome to stand with us. Go ahead and bring them to the first meeting. The first meeting will be on Sunday at 4 PM, location TBA.
It will be dangerous, but there is a war coming, and danger is never far off. I do this because I want to share everything that I know with you to help you survive this fight. I do this because I have faith that together we can crush what's coming. I do this because you all had faith and held hope in me once before; and I'm asking for it one more time. We stood up against the Ministry before, and this time we'll be standing up against Voldemort and his followers.
Now is the time to prepare. We will not be crippled in this war.
Who will stand with us?
[/End DUMBLEDORE'S ARMY]
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[Sat 13 Sep @ 10:34pm] |
[Friends Only]
I was seriously considering going back to Tonks and asking her if I could work under her again... I don't know why. Maybe Ron's guilt trip started to get to me or something, but every time I thought about it I remembered how right I had felt about leaving in the first place. My decision to resign from being an Auror was something I knew was the right thing to do, and there I was doubting myself. I think I just got nervous that I wasn't doing enough to help. Thank Merlin for Neville setting me straight.
He also had a good point about working with the DA again
I better get going. I told Ginny I would meet her at our diner on her break so we could work out a date.
[/Close Friends Only]
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| 27 |
[Tue 12 Aug @ 8:33pm] |
I'm not entirely sure how forgiving I feel like being right now.
I've never felt so claustrophobic before, well maybe once or twice, but after shouting for so long, there really wasn't much air left in there. Does anyone know where Sirius went off t
It's really late... but I can't sleep.
[Hexed Private to Dean]
You went on a date with Luna? Do you fancy her or something? Are you an idiot?
[/Private to Dean]
[Hexed to the Order]
Surprise!
[/Hexed to the Order]
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| 26 |
[Mon 21 Jul @ 4:53pm] |
[Hexed Private to Order Members]
Either the girls are showing us up or all of us boys are still too hungover to write a few sentences!
Two days until the next meeting! Good job again to everyone for Saturday night; another successful training meeting.
[/End Private]
[Older Order Members]
Re-/Introducing Sirius on Wednesday, right?
[/Older Order Members]
[Ginny]
Dinner tomorrow night? We have some plans to make before we're the next couple people are choking for information!
[/Ginny]
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| 25 |
[Sat 12 Jul @ 2:11pm] |
[Private to Sirius]
Where were you when I left? I was going to walk over to get something for Remus and take you, but I couldn't figure out where you'd gone off to? Maybe I'm more blind than we originally thought. I ended up just apparating.
And by the way, Dean Thomas is staying the night - he's being booted from his flat so that Seamus can spend the night with Lavender... Point is, I don't recommend you be out and about unless you want to explain why the hell you're alive and that you've been a good guy the whole time. Up to you. I don't think that anyone was planning on telling the rest of them until next weeks meeting. I know it's the Order Meeting already tonight, so you'll already be stuck in your room for that... and I hate to do this to you, but he needed a place to stay.
Maybe he'll hit the sack early and you can wander all you like?
[/Private to Sirius]
[Hexed Private; Sirius, Remus, Sturgis, Tonks, Mr. Weasley, Charlie, Bill, ... older Order Members]
Think that we could do another meeting based just around defensive spells? I know that we did offensive just the other day and took up an entire meeting, but I figure that if we plan to "introduce" Sirius to them next week that we could do more wand-work at this one and then talk business next Wednesday? Everyone was catching onto things so fast last time that I think it would be a good idea. And we don't know whe And we don't know when things will start to get worse. Because they will.
[/Hexed Private]
[Private]
No nightmares last night... I don't know if I just didn't think about it before I fell asleep or.. er, well, or I just blocked them out and don't remember them at all. I didn't wake up, I can say that much. Hermione keeps watching me like I'm going to fall over dead at any second. It's really ridiculous... I'm not entirely sure if she's said anything to anyone else. I honestly hope not. We all have enough to worry about as it is.
[/Private]
[Hexed Against Loyal Death Eaters/Supporters]
It's been incredibly hot lately, anyone else noticing? Looks like the weather's out of whack again.
Oye, Tonks, I was going to ask you earlier, do you still want me to go check that place out?
Charlie, Hannah? Anything I can help with? I find that having spare moments here and there makes me anxious. I don't even care if it's picking up chairs for the ceremony - I'll do anything.
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[Fri 13 Jun @ 9:59am] |
[Private; Ginny can read]
I don't know what happened yesterday morning; I mean everyone has nightmares... but that was just - it was so real. And it's not the first time that I've had realistic dreams, but it wasn't the same. I'm just not used to having such... horror right in front of me No, that's not true. I'm not used to not being able to get to people when they need help. It was like there was nothing I could have done about it. It was just like Cedric; but drawn out and there was just a Death Eater in my way that kept knocking me down.
Hermione seemed to be pretty worried, but I assured her it had nothing to do with Voldemort getting inside of my head. Merlin knows I've been doing better at my Occlumency lessons - even Snape has admitted to that...mostly. And I just haven't had any connection with him lately unless I meant to
I just need a few days to forget about it; that's all. It was just a nightmare.
[/End Private]
[Private to the Order]
The meeting last night went really well; or at least I thought that it did. It was fun to take a night off specifically to focus on Patronus' instead of just having a portion of a meeting to work on it. Everyone did really good; but what can we say? Remus is an amazing teacher.
Of course, the D.A. was fully prepared and you guys helped a lot - thanks for everything you guys did last night.
[/End Private]
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| June 4th; later in the morning... |
[Sat 31 May @ 8:35am] |
[Hexed Private to Ginny]
Where are you? Are you home? Are you safe?
[/End Hex]
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| 22 |
[Tue 6 May @ 2:54pm] |
[PRIVATE; Sirius, Remus and Ginny can read]
Of course he has to pull something like this right now. Is it really any wonder why I shut people out and don't even bother letting them know what is going on or why I am acting the way that I am? How many times have we had to argue over something that he doesn't even understand? How many times am I going to blow my temper and go off on him because he just assumes something and runs with it? Yeah, I could try and stay more level headed when he gets all pissy, but... wait, why should I? When he is being so... ridiculous! I'm flawed, and I know this very well, in fact, I think that it is pointed out to me more often than anything else in my life - all of the times that I have messed up - I get it everyday. I shouldn't let it get to me, I shouldn't have talked to him like that... but I just sort of thought that out of all the people who should understand, Ron would. And then Hermione calling my a martyr... I still can't get over that one. It cut a little deep.
Maybe I shut people out because they do things like this. Because Ron is such a bloody prat and--- no matter what, he will always be my best mate. No matter how many times we argue, let's face it.
Who am I kidding myself? I don't shut people out because they get mad at me for running on gut instinct, not because they worry about me, and certainly not because I get in arguments with them. I shut them out so that they don't get hurt; because it seems like everywhere I go, trouble is bound to follow.
I know that I have to give him time to forgive me for some of the things I said... but I think that I am going to need all the support I can get soon enough - and especially all the help.
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| May 24th - before the Final |
[Wed 23 Jan @ 2:17pm] |
[Hexed To Ron, Hermione, Ginny, Remus, Sirius, and the rest of the Weasleys]
After a lot of thinking, and long talks with Charlie and Ron, I've decided that it's time to leave the Ministry and put all of my time toward the Order and what we're trying to achieve. I know that the Ministry is pushing for the good, and that as Aurors we're tracking down Death Eaters; but it's taking so long. Me and Ron have been working on the same case for nearly six months, and hopefully we'll finish tonight, but what if we don't?
I think that I could be doing more to help if I weren't stuck behind a desk writing reports so much. I know that people are going to object, like I'm sure Mrs. Weasley will, but I'm not a boy anymore as both Ron and Charlie pointed out (Ron quite a few times) and I'm ready to go out there and help finish the job. We know more than the Ministry does, and if I can help track down that locket now than I'm going to.
I'll stop going on, because you probably get the point, but I wanted to let you all know what was going on. I've been so bleeding stressed out and when Charlie thought this idea up it seemed like the best option. Also, I left Tonks out of the hex for a reason - I want to tell her in person so if you all could just... forget to mention anything about it around her. She might be a little...disappointed?
[/End Hex to Ron, Hermione, Ginny, Remus, Sirius, and the rest of the Weasleys]
[Hexed to Ron, Hermione, and Sirius]
Like you haven't heard from me enough already, here's the other thing that's been on my mind a lot lately. Ginny and I have Me and Ginny I think that I already know that I held off mine and Ginny's relationship for too long in the first place... and now that we're more, well official, I just think that maybe it's time... to make things more permanent? I can't afford much, and I'm not even sure she's ready, seeing as I haven't talked to her about it, but I'm starting to think that it's just one of those things that are going to happen and now's as good a time as any.
I want to marry her before I lose the chance, you know?
I need help finding an... inexpensive ring that can substitute for an engagement ring for the time being. And Ron, I've got to figure out when I can talk to your Dad about it.
[/End Hex to Ron, Hermione, and Sirius]
[Hexed to Sirius]
It's good to have you back.
[/End Hex to Sirius]
[Hexed to Charlie]
Thanks.
[/End Hex]
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| 20 |
[Wed 28 Nov @ 6:30pm] |
Finally. We're getting somewhere.
[Hexed Against Loyal Death Eaters/Supporters]
We've had a tip off about who it was for awhile now, but obviously we can't act on that alone. Finally; we could possibly end this case and move onto the next.
It's strange to think that I actually knew who Mandy was. I had seen her at school countless times... now to be dealing with her murder... it's strange. I want to catch this guy so badly now, I think I'm becoming addicted to work.
[Hermione and Ron]
Let's do it tomorrow night. We can have Sirius back in a little over twenty four hours, just imagine.
[/End]
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| 20 |
[Thu 15 Nov @ 1:30pm] |
[Hexed Private - Hermione and Ron could break]
It's comforting to know that we could possibly have Sirius back soon. Obviously when... he was killed I didn't think that I'd ever see him again, as much as I was shoving that thought to the back of my mind and making myself think that he could somehow still be alive... Remus holding me back from going in after him seems like ages ago, and then this starts coming up and it seems like just yesterday.
Without parents my entire life, Sirius was the closest thing that I had to one, as well as one of the closest things I have to my Mum and Dad; and Remus of course. Now with Neville going through what he is... I don't know, I'm just thinking about life more in general and how often we overlook who we do have. Not that Neville did at all, of course..Sounds ridiculous and sappy, I know, but seeing your Godfather again makes you look at life in another perspective.
Er, guess that I'm just rambling. I'll stop. Need to get the final Brocklehurst details cleared with Tonks before we start a physical investigation. Wonder where Ron went..
[/End Private Hex]
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| 19 |
[Wed 7 Nov @ 6:51pm] |
[Hexed Private to The Order]
Can't say that I expected that to happen. I wasn't... well we... Luna is safe, at least.
I can't believe that he was able to follow you two, especially figuring out which hotel you were in...we still don't have the locket At least now we know that the Death Eaters have it. Well, we don't particularly know that but we know that they did. For all we know Voldemort could have hidden it again. Time to start searching again
I guess that we're back to the beginning. That's fine, we can do this. We've located it before... me, Ron, and Hermione found the rest of them. We can do this. We just can't give up.
Merlin, it's like this war will never end
At least we got out of there alive.
[/End Hex]
[Hexed to Neville]
What do you think about moving into Grimmauld with us? You'll have more people around you. I know it doesn't sound too appealing right now, but we're all here for you...
[/End Hex]
[Hexed to Ron and Hermione]
There's got to be some happy news around here... any news on the runes, Hermione?
[/End Hex]
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[Wed 31 Oct @ 6:08pm] |
[Hexed Against Loyal Death Eaters/Supporters/Neutrals to the Order]
Sometimes I forget how disgusting the Death Eaters really are. I mean, I don't exactly forget but I am reminded strongly when we're faced against large groups of them. Patients? How honorable and brave of them to take on someone that can't even get out of bed. I can't even think about it right now... makes me feel ruthless.
I actually got cornered this morning by someone from the Prophet asking me if I showed up at St. Mungo's as an Auror or an Order Member. Stupid gits. Why does it even matter? I was there, wasn't I? Shouldn't they be more concerned with that.
See, it doesn't matter what we do. It only matters what it looks like in the end and how many people were killed. They don't care that the Aurors/Law Enforcement/and some of the Order were there, they just want to know all the gory details.
[/End Private to Order]
[Private to Ron & Hermione]
Hey, I know that Ron mentioned the idea of opening up Grimmauld for others to move into, but what about us? Why are we wasting our money on rent when we could move in there? Of course, others are welcome to stay there. But Remus could use the company, anyway. Tonks sees him every night, and a few of the others, but maybe he wouldn't mind us there. I know that our flat is finally clean, but at least now the landlady can't bark at us for leaving it messy?
Only thing is, we can't let Romilda know that it's open for moving into.
[/End Private to Ron & Hermione]
[Private to Ginny]
How are you? Does he still have you going into work after the attack? I haven't seen you since that night... I'm just glad that I found you.
[/End Private to Ginny]
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| 17 |
[Fri 19 Oct @ 5:18pm] |
[Hexed against DE/Supporters and ROMILDA VANE and ROSE ZELLER]
I am officially saying that I am freezing my arse off here. She took my jacket and now I don't have one. Of course, there's allso the fact that I have no spare money either to go and get a new one, so I'm making up for the lack of one with the layered shirt thing.
I'm still freezing.
[/End]
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| 16 |
[Mon 1 Oct @ 12:10pm] |
[Hexed Private to the Order of the Phoenix]
Funny, it only seemed like yesterday that we were all working our bleeding asses off to end this war. Oh right, it nearly was yesterday. A few weeks and look at us, already insulting each other.
Am I the only one other than Lavender that read Remus' entry as more of a 'we are doing things' rather than you are all weak and childish. You're all taking it the wrong way. And I for one am pissed to hell and back as well that you all think we aren't doing anything. Have you all been asleep during meetings? Have you not been listening?
And to think that this is what we show as new members come in. That half of us are pathetic and can't take a reprimand when someone who knows what he's talking about gives us one.
Shut the fuck up, Dean.
[/End Hex to Order]
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| April 26, 2003 |
[Tue 18 Sep @ 3:16pm] |
Seems like the wrath of the Prophet is upon me again.
Just for the record, the man was pulling Ginny away from my rather roughly by the arm. And I didn't run off throwing a fit, I simply pounded him straight in the face and left the area. There's no shame in defending your loved ones. Secondly, I already know how much blame I'm receiving for all of this. There's no need to remind me that over half of England wants me in Azkaban.
[Hexed Private to Ron and Hermione]
Alright. I've written down the Runes that are on Sirius' side of the mirror, and now we need to get the ones on the other side. What night are you both free? It's time for a trip back into the Department of Mysteries.
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| Backdated - April 17th |
[Fri 31 Aug @ 11:09am] |
[Hexed Private to Hermione and Ron]
You know I left early from the cocktail party.. I got some wild idea that I should try the mirror again. Sirius' mirror, to be exact..
Well it worked.
[/Hex]
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| 13 |
[Mon 6 Aug @ 3:00pm] |
[Private to The Order and close friends]
Guess I better vent and ramble on my journal rather than in public. And no, I'm not going to be a git and vent at someone. I need to vent about myself.
I'm finished crying, I'm finished complaining, I'm finished losing hope. It's time to get a hold of myself and go out there and finish this. I'm finished letting Voldemort and his Death Eaters get to me in so many ways. That's exactly what they want, yeah? To break us down with their attacks, and their jeering journal updates. I'm ready to finish what he's started for him. I'm done hoping to be able to end this when the time comes; I think that if we're going to fight, then we have to know that we are ready. Especially me. I'm doubling my Occlumency lessons with Snape, he's already agreed to it. And I want to ask for help from anyone that thinks they can provide it.
Remus, I know your tired now, but when you feel better, can I ask for some help? The Patronus charm has saved my life numerous times, and I know that you have a lot more than that up your sleeve. Tonks, you know twice as much as I do, or more for that matter, about dueling dark wizards. Mr. and Mrs. Weasley, you've already taught me so much, but practice with anything is helpful. Charlie, Bill, I've seen both of you in action and know for a fact that you are amazing. Anything you know that you think I should work on? Kingsley, Moody, anything you think would be good to know I'll do my best to learn. I want to train on my time off to prepare; I don't exactly want to be stuck facing Voldemort not knowing what to do. Not that I ever did before.. just got away on pure luck
Also, I was thinking that Order Meetings should happen more. Not in the usual way, not just to get and give information and do some training. What about at least once or twice a week? To get into different groups and train? This way, if we run into trouble, we are ready to fight. I know that everyone in the Order is already good and can work well with a wand, but let's make ourselves even better. I'm thinking like the D.A., but twice as large and with better teachers.
Remus, we already know you are a great teacher. Tonks, Kingsley, Moody, Hestia, you've trained people at work and we know that works, care to do it some more? Viktor, we know that Durmstrang taught you more than how to cast some charms. You know more about the Dark Arts and what they can do than a good number. Anything you can teach us to defend ourselves against is good. Bill, Charlie, we all know you've got quite a few tricks up your sleeves. We can divide into different groups on different days. Have different people teaching different groups and we'll get better and we'll be ready for what comes.
You get my point.
I'm done done waiting for Voldemort to come to me. I'm going to train, and we're going to find the last Horcrux.
I'm finished watching the people I love get hurt. I want to stop it, and I want to send some of that hurt their way.
[/Private]
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| 12 |
[Wed 11 Jul @ 2:42pm] |
[Hexed to the Order]
I'm sorry that I've been this way. I should be there for Tonks. I'm such a git, as usual.
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| 11 |
[Wed 27 Jun @ 1:56pm] |
[Clumsily written; sloppy; smeared from tears]
I thought he was going to be alright. That's what everyone said. Remus is going to be fine.
I thought he was That's not It's not supposed to He isn't He can't be gone How are we going to Why can't I'm losing everyone What the hell is wrong with
He's not FINE! He's gone now! And we didn't do anything to help him! We---
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| 10 |
[Wed 20 Jun @ 3:33pm] |
MARCH 31st, 2003
[Hexed Private to The Order]
I went to see Snape for my first well not really the first Occlumency lesson this morning. All of the ‘discipline your mind’ shite just made everything worse. I’m disciplining my mind as much as I fecking can! I came out with nothing but a bleeding headache and a desire to punch him in the face. How can I concentrate on disciplining my mind when he has to point out every single thing that I am doing wrong. THIS is exactly why it took me three months to even go see him. Just another thing that I screwed up. I am very aware of the fact that I should have gone earlier to see him about Occlumency. But hey, might as well screw up like the public thinks I do all the time. There you go, ladies and gentlemen; Harry Potter is a fecking screw up that put all of England in danger. That’s what I usually do, right? Put others in danger! Fail at killing Voldemort. That’s my favorite thing to do when a Dark Wizard is at large. Screw up.
I don’t complain much. I don’t even let the public get to me with all of their immature glares and whispers of how Voldemort is back because I failed to kill him. But for once, they’ve finally cracked me. I’m sick of it. I’m sick of everyone blaming all of this shite on me! I did what I could! We all did what we could! We thought he was dead! So we were idiots to not find the locket anyway and destroy it. Pardon us for not being perfect like we are expected to be.
I didn’t ask to be anyone’s expected Savior! So don’t look to me like I’m anything special. I’m just a stupid kid with a scar on his forehead that just happens to be from some crack head, power hungry wizard that went mad and wants to kill thousands more people.
I’m not a poster boy, and you can expect just as much from me as you expect from everyone else.
And if any of you haven’t heard, we thought we had a lead on where the Locket was, but Mundungus decided that he would rather sell random things in Grimmauld then leave them where they belong. He sold it to some bloke in a pub, so now, rather than just searching England, we have to search all over Europe to find the piece of shite.
I don’t know, maybe I’m just in a really bad mood. Wonder why.
I want this to end, just like everyone else. I want to find him, and I want to end this once and for all.
[End Hex]
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| 9 |
[Wed 13 Jun @ 10:16am] |
[Hexed Against Death Eaters/Supporters]
That was relatively disgusting and disturbing. For those of you who didn't see the gore, be grateful. They weren't exaggerating when they said it was like a slaughter house. Made me sick to my stomach There was no one left.
[/End Hex]
( Hexed Private to The Order )
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| 8 |
[Fri 1 Jun @ 9:23am] |
I would just like to say that I am probably not the best boyfriend.. I just happened to have a brilliant moment and came up with something to do for Valentine's Day.
( Private to Ron and Seamus )
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| 7 |
[Fri 11 May @ 3:41pm] |
[Hexed against Ginny]
Alright, so I’ll admit that I’m really nervous about Valentine’s Day. I had this huge plan and it’s fine, I just… what if she hates it? Sometimes it would be nice if we could read women’s thoughts. I remember Aunt Petunia watched a movie once that was about this guy that could hear what women were thinking, and it worked in his favour for awhile, but I would think that after awhile he would get sick of it. I have no idea; I was locked in the closet at that point. Anyway…
So that’s my problem for the week.
[/Hexed against Ginny]
[Hexed Private to Ron]
What are you doing for Valentine’s Day? Are you going to do anything with Hermione? Should I even be asking this?
[/Hexed Private to Ron]
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| 6 |
[Mon 9 Apr @ 12:36pm] |
I can’t say that work has been energizing lately, because it hasn’t, but it’s certainly been entertaining and at least I get a rush from it. I think I’ll really start to feel more comfortable there once Ron and Hermione finish… I’m not uncomfortable necessarily, I’m just used to having them with me when I go out to do these sort of things. I’ll get used to it, I guess.
Hey Charlie, how’re you? Haven’t heard from you in awhile and I wondered if maybe those dragons of yours took a good bite out of you?
Ginny, have any time off soon? We should do something.
[Private to Close Friends]
Maybe I’m just losing my touch, if I ever had it in the first place. Kingsley actually pulled me out of a mission the other day because my headaches have been getting worse and it got particularly harsh that morning. I guess I never really told anyone about the headaches, did I? It was just after the Ball… obviously you all know what happened there, and ever since my scar actually bled I’ve had a continuous headache, and it seems like every day it’s at another level. It hurts to close my eyes… I don’t even know why I’m complaining… I’m just worrying people and I’ve already gone to the Healers… nothing has made it go away. I’ve been sick to my stomach all week and the nausea is only getting worse.
Here’s to hoping that things get better.
[/Private to Close Friends]
Harry
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[Sat 10 Feb @ 9:52pm] |
[Hexed Private to Mr. and Mrs. Weasley]
I was wondering if I could speak to both of you.. more in private though, as I'm not sure how the rest of the family would react and I wanted to tell you two first.
[/End Hex]
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[Wed 7 Feb @ 5:58pm] |
[Hexed Private to Close Friends, i.e. Remus, Tonks, Ginny, Hermione, Ron, Weasleys....you know who you are]
I need a review on the Occlumency. It's like every night they get worse, the nightmares I mean. I haven't slept much, especially not the past two nights. They've become so extreme that I'd rather lose the sleep than let myself dream. He's obviously thrilled about the attack..
I don't mean to worry anyone.. you all know that I'm not one to run to others with my problems, I usually keep them inside. But there's only so much I can do.. and with Snape as a mentor for it, the Occlumency lessons before were never very successful; for obvious reasons. I don't know anything else to do though, every time I have one it feels like I'm closer and closer to that same feeling I had when I attacked Mr. Weasley.. Mr. Weasley was attacked..
I feel sick..
[/End Hex]
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[Sat 30 Dec @ 8:56pm] |
[Hexed Private to Ginny]
I know it's really short notice, and I know that there is the chance that you're not even.. going. But I figured I would try.
Would you go to the New Years Ball with me? As my date, I mean.. I sound like an idiot, as usual It's alright if you say no, I understand.. it's short notice. And you probably don't even want to go with me
Just.. yeah.
[/Private to Ginny]
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[Sat 11 Nov @ 4:57am] |
Maturity just isn't something that we will ever grasp. Or atleast, it doesn't seem like it. Really, sometimes the community reminds me of little kids.. Like back in school when something would be going on, and one git had to ruin it for everyone else. Well, maybe not ruin it, but make things worse. This whole Muggle/Wizard relations thing is already risky enough letting them in on everything that we've come to know through years of secrecy.. and then they seem to think that just because we can use wands that we think we are superior to them..
Shooting someone will solve the problem. Oh yes. Let's shoot someone and "fix the problem".
I heard the Halloween Ball went well, which is good.. Sorry I missed it!
Anyway, I have to get back to the bloody stack of paperwork that has piled up on my desk since I've been out on my last mission.
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